To Begin

No one expects to have their entire life change in an instant.  We believe there will be a gratuitous flow, a slow procession that will alter our subconscious gently.  Yet all it takes is one thought, a single action to start the sphere of thought revolving in a vastly new direction.

I was scanning through the channels one night while I was home alone bored and not particularly motivated to do anything.  I came upon a program on the History channel and paused, partly because there was nothing else on the tube at 10pm on a Monday night, but also because the program instantly struck me as interesting.  It was called Ancient Aliens, and somehow had passed me by in the past.

I was not what you would call a history buff or even a conspiracy theorist but unique and antithetical schools of thought had always intrigued me, so I paused to measure my new find.

Searching for knowledge was not knew to me.  I could easily lose myself in a book for hours at a time, and if I found one that provoked my thoughts I would not put it down until I had digested the entire thing and absorbed its contents.  I cannot remember a time when I did not want to know more about what was going on around me, existence of life itself.  And not only my life, but lives of those who had come before me.  Their daily trials and tribulations always piqued my wonder and imagination and I could not help but feel their efforts, conscious or unconscious, had shaped what the world had become in the present.

After becoming a mother for the first time and watching new life form from nothing, I found a piece of me was born.  A cognizance was awakened to the awareness that it is not only our technological achievements that distinguish us human beings from other organisms on this planet, but our spirituality.  I could not look into the eyes of my infant daughter and not see a unique and extraordinary soul.

Before me flashed pictures, not of the typical little grey aliens we have all come to recognize as the “norm” for extra terrestrials, but by the large, bearded and gloriously bedecked beings that the program were claiming as the “Creators of Mankind”. I did not know it at the time but that was the beginning of a thought-changing chapter in my life.